Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Michael

Things are not going so well. Michael is experiencing some complications that have set him back in his recovery, and are bringing his spirits down. It's been tough, to say the least. I think this whole thing has been more difficult even than the aftermath of Finn's birth. Our whole existence lately, it seems, revolves around Michael's state, and in the midst of that the kids are off on summer break and we're trying to keep things as pleasant and normal for them as possible. One day runs into the next; most days I have no idea what day it is, what with Michael being home all the time, until I look at my calendar to see what therapy or doctor appointments we might have.

Michael was supposed to begin chemo again this week, but because of the setbacks he's having, his oncologist has decided to delay it for now until some things get figured out and resolved.

I am trying to keep a positive outlook, but it's not always easy. My patience is wearing more thinly than normal, and tempers are flaring even between Michael and me on occasion.

The whole thing pretty much sucks.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh Sweet Lisa, Huge hugs.
I keep thinking of you guys. You all deserve a break.
Love, Asha.

Laurie said...

Thinking of you, Lisa, and sending lots of hugs across the country...
Hang in there.

Ann of the Incredible Gift said...

I found your blog here from your profile, from Finnian's blog, which I got to from Down Syndrome New Mama, which I arrived at from... sorry, I forget. *sigh*

I had surgery for bone cancer in 1992, and the course of my treatment did not go exactly as predicted initially. I have not, so far, had any recurrences.

Hang in there. I'll be thinking of you. *hugs*

Kleidy said...

Happy Anniversary!!!

Perhaps things were easier after Finn’s diagnosis because Michael and you were on the same page - most of the time. In dealing with such dis-ease, things are different. Michael is experiencing physical challenges –all by himself- that are exposing his emotional vulnerability. You are experiencing a lot of emotional pain –all by yourself- that comes along with a life’s crisis. You may be on different pages at times, but you are “together” in this. Keep on going, one day at a time, better days are ahead. Continue to stay strong and positive.

Sending well wishes youR way :)